Wednesday, September 24, 2014

The Difference of A Peace Filled Mind!




Howdy!  

It's Wednesday!  Which all by it self makes today a great day!  I can remember when I was in elementary school my Mom would tell me, "It's hump day your half way there."  I was not a fan of school until a little later in my schooling years so getting me up to go to school I am sure was a bit of a chore.  Somehow knowing you are half way there makes you feel like you can get going and face the day.  

This week has been remarkable better than last week.  Which, really would have been pretty easy to do. I am so glad that things are looking up though. I think it is matter of state of mind more than anything.  The past few weeks... probably more like a month I have just been in a weird funk.  Do you go through times like that?  I was grumpy!  Personally, I am going through some trials that are really hard, frustrating, and have me on an emotional roller coaster.  High, High's and Low Low's, and they could be within minutes of each other. I would start the day off just feeling down and it would just get worse from there.  Then, the added stress of kids, laundry, cleaning, cooking, etc., etc., etc.   I knew what was going on, but I couldn't seem to drag myself out of it.  I prayed, I knew that I needed to stop stressing, I knew that all will be OK I just couldn't get to my happy place.  

What has changed? Well, a lot more praying!  Also, realizing that no matter what... I really don't like being unhappy all the time and it was making everything else that I go through on a daily basis so much harder.  I felt so out of my element... I am usually a happy person no matter what is going on.  (You know one of those happy people who always see's the good in the situation even if it's a bad one.) I thought I had given it to God, but I continued to take it back and stress over it. Which, I knew was a really bad idea and would not help, but... It was like when I tell my kids no and they keep on and on saying but, but, but.  I just couldn't let it go.  I (think) I have given it completely over now.  That has relieved a great deal of stress.  When I got to the point of... it really doesn't matter because it will all work out (and it all really is out of my control anyway)  I knew and know this, as it has happened repeatedly in my life. I just didn't want to let this one go.  

What could possibly get the "happy to a fault" girl down.  Well, I don't really get a break these days from babies.  Which is a good thing and a bad thing all at once.  I love taking care of kids.  It is an amazing blessing!  It is also the hardest job I have ever had.  I love these kiddo's so much!  There are days... some days it is really hard to stay "up"!  Teething babies, toddlers that are curious and getting into something every waking moment.  They are all girls and they are seriously mean little buggers sometimes.  Then you blink and they are the sweetest most innocent wonderful little munchkins ever!  LOL  High High's and Low Low's.  Then you add in some stress from the outside world.  Such as school just started and my teenager has all sorts of things that he needs money for(not like 5-10 bucks more like hundreds.) Another huge stress has been that I can't seem to fill or keep my spots filled for my daycare.  It makes it pretty hard to continue to do something even if I love it if it is not paying the bills.  I love the families that I care for. I have made great friendships that I don't want to loose.  I love the kids I care for.  When I think about not getting to be at home with my kiddos it rips my heart out!  Plus, I start to go down the road of I can't get everything done now and I am home all day... how in the world am I going to get it all done if I am not here.  Ya, that pretty much sums up the "stuff" that got this happy girl down.  

This week is a tone better.  I have let it go.  It is in God's hands and where I land will be where I should be.  I am making each moment last (as I should do everyday no matter what) I am making sure that at night I get some "me" time.  I have also found that getting outside helped a lot for me.  It is getting cooler so it is nice outside and I feel so much better when I have gotten some fresh air.  Spending time everyday doing something I enjoy.  I love taking pictures, reading, and writing.  I have made sure that I have gotten to do at least one of these things everyday. The money stresses... I have decided that it will work out.  Either I will find a job that pays better, or I'll get another kiddo to watch, or maybe both, or who knows really, but I know it will work out.  It's not my money it's God's money anyway.  

I also realized that the things that are really important have been taken care of.  We have a roof over our heads, we have clothes, food, our health.  All of the things that are most important have always been taken care of.  Sure, I'd like to not have to figure out what can get paid, and what must wait.  I'd love to be able to do, get, much more than we do.  Yet, those things are not as important as the time, love, and fun I show and have with my family.  So the happy girl is back!  :-)  

 The difference in my state of mind has been a peace filled mind.  I have given my worries to my God!  I have faith all will be well.  The peace that I have fills my days with joy instead of heartache and worry.  If you are struggling with stress no matter how big I encourage you to give it to God and see what a difference a peace filled mind can make. 


TTFN!
April

Thursday, September 11, 2014

A Day for Remembering



Today is the 13th anniversary of 9/11.  Before sending off my kids to school today we talked a little about what today is and what it means.  Why we remember and why we are more cautious today.  My teen knew and though he was very young when 9/11 happened he remembers.  My 2nd grader understands, but I think it's important to talk about this with him. He has never lived in a world that terrorism is not very real.  He does not have a memory of what America was like before 9/11, but I do want him to know why it is important for us to remember this day.  

I think it is important to remember because as time passes the sting of this event maybe fades a little, but I don't ever want it to fade so much that we do not remember that there are people in this world that hate American's.  People who hate and want to hurt us.  We are aware but not afraid of this.  We live our lives today like we would any day, but perhaps we are a little more cautious.  More aware of our surroundings.  More aware of the people around us.  I know for me I feel a deep pride in my Country.  Being American is a privilege and a blessing.

I love seeing the patriotism that is shown today.  It makes me a little sad that we don't show this amount of pride everyday.  Being an American is much more than living in America.  Being American means you understand the sacrifices that have been made through out history up to and including today that make this country great and free.  America is more than a place.  America is it's people.  It's real people the ones who would fight right now to protect our people, land, and way of life.  American people are fierce, loyal, protective, hardworking, smart, creative, spiritual, and really so much more.  So really 9/11 isn't only about remembering that we were attacked and many innocent people died.  It is also about remembering that these people who would try to bring down and hurt America tried, and they failed.  We came back stronger than ever.  

So, no matter what may happen today.  America remembers and always will.  

April


Monday, September 8, 2014

It's Monday!?!?!?!?


my two youngest and I playing!


It's Monday and with every Monday comes that uggh I have so much to do feeling... and I'm tired already!  That's OK.  It only took me a little while to get motivated and organized today so I am on track.  

How was your weekend?  Mine was... busy... it always is!  Let see to recap...  

Friday it rained!!  Yes this is a big deal around here.  We live in the Texas Panhandle and we have been in drought for a while now.  Rain is good!  We went to one of our favorite burger places in town and ate dinner with my Aunt.  It is so good to catch up!  My oldest (we sometimes call him "The Teenager" since he's the only Teen in the house right now)  The Teenager was wanting to go to a Homecoming Game for one of the local schools (neither team was "his" team).  This was completely to spend time with his girlfriend.  Being that I remember what it was like to be in high school and make those special memories that you will remember for every and ever... I was ok with it him going. Yet, not really OK with the fact that this school was on the opposite side of town.  Anyway long story short he went but there was much Teenage Drama and Teenage Mistake made to where The Teenager was in big doo doo when it was time to get him. It is way to much to go into in this post, but I feel a Teenage Rant coming on so stay tuned!  All is well now, but uggh Teenagers!

Saturday was filled with making the meal plan, grocery list, and actually going to the grocery store.  I don't know about you guys but going to the grocery store is exhausting!  I tried something new this time.  I've been thinking about doing this for a while but money is always an issue and I am still not completely convinced that the little added cost is worth it.  Instead of shopping at one Mega Superstore (aka Wallyworld)  I went to Target and our local grocery store.  The thought was that it would be less crowded, stressful, and the overall experience would be a lot better.  Now Target was pretty good as far as the crowds and experience.  I've always loved Target.  I can't say that the local grocery store was less crowded than Wal-Mart would have been because it was packed!  Then trying to find things in the store and the items available being different.  I am not 100% sold on it so we shall see...  Saturday night I had planned on getting some things done, but fell asleep snuggling my little G man and didn't wake up until 11!  Oh, well...

Sunday was filled with new classes at church, and a great service.  Once we got home we worked on getting some items up in the attic, and moving our old dryer out and the new to us dryer in.(thank you Nan Nan and Paw Paw for the new to us dryer)  The Teenager did a great job moving stuff around.  Sunday evening I made a new meal that I saw on Pintrest!  We discussed a small tweek that we will do next time and then it will be perfect! (and then I will share it here for all of you to try it!)  My hubby's brother came over to help with a toilet issue (he's a plumber so that is so so helpful!)  He stayed for dinner!  More catching up and visiting!  Kids in bed and ready for the new week and then my hubby and I sat down to watch my show!  I am a huge fan of the Outlander series by Diana Gaboldon and it has recently been made into a show on Starz.  I am loving it!  They have done a great job!  Then it was off to bed for me.  

Busy but good weekend!

So now it's Monday and I have so much to get done.  On the list for today:
Laundry, Go to the Bank, get a prescription filled, Write! :-), post about my kiddos fundraiser(hey do you want to buy some overpriced popcorn, or maybe some chocolate?  It's for a good cause!), Clean bathrooms, and if I have time vacuum. This is of course on top of and when there is any free moment while taking care of kiddos! Ahh let the running around like a chicken with my head cut off begin!  LOL


TTFN
April

Monday, September 1, 2014

Roman Noodles are Really Good for Something... Besides Eating




At my house Roman noodles are a staple! I keep trying to slowly eliminate them, and they keep coming back! My boys love them and if they weren't so high in salt and bad stuff I'd be all for keeping them around... forever! Especially since I have found such a good use for those boxes that they come in.


I am a thrifty Mamma, and have a hard time throwing away a box that could be used for another purpose. Have any of you done this... Or something like this... Or am I just a weird cookie!! LOL

Well for now the Roman noodles are staying so I will embrace the chance to use those boxes!

TTFN
April

Sunday, August 31, 2014

That Feeling... When You are Completely Overwhelmed!



I have needed to get my nail polish out and take the chips of purple nail polish that are left on my fingers off for over a week.  Somehow every time I think of it (usually in the bathroom... yes I know that is weird... it's the only time I get away either alone or at least with only one kiddo) So... that is the time I notice those little things like I really need to clean that nail polish off.  ANNYWAY!  It never happens because I come out of the bathroom and notice something like that the laundry needs to be folded or, a little person needs me for something, or any number of the millions (no I am not joking) of things I do around here.

So, when I realized something this past week after a good long talk with God(...yes I talk to him, yes out loud, and you should too!  :-) ... ) that I need to be sharing my life.  Surly I am not the only person going through this craziness!  or maybe I am but, maybe sharing my craziness will make someone else's craziness seen not so bad!  LOL  I'm here for you ladies... really I am!

That is why I am sitting here typing away in the very brief moment while little miss is sleeping and the boys are playing quietly (haha ya right)  and yes... I still need to remove the purple chips of paint off of my nails.  Maybe I should go do that right now... 

Do any of you feel like the pile of stuff to get done just keeps getting bigger and you just keep falling farther behind.  You are not alone!  I was just thinking about this today.  Why do I feel so incredibly overwhelmed!  Yes, there is a lot going on right now.  School just started, life in general with all of it's craziness is overwhelming, but I usually am able to keep my head above water.  I really don't know why I am feeling this major overwhelmingness (sorry I know that is not a word... but if fits!)  So, here is my plan.  Give it to God.  
You may be asking how is that really going to help?  Well, it works out like this.  My day is God's day.  That is the way I see it.  I am right where he wants me to be so I should stop stressing because the laundry isn't done, the house is a mess, the kids just keep asking me question after question after question after question... Me stressing about it doesn't change anything except for how I feel about it.  So instead when I start to feel stressed or overwhelmed I am going to give it to God.  Ask for what ever I need to be able to deal with and be ok with everything going on in the place that I am at right now.  Not only that, but I am going to ask to enjoy it.  Remove myself completely from the stress and have fun... even enjoy the chaos!  Whoah did I just say enjoy the chaos!  LOL  

My kids won't always be little and all of the phases that we are going through right now will not last forever.  So I am going to enjoy it while I have them at this stage.  I know I will look back and I will miss when they were like this so instead of stressing I am going to enjoy it... all of it!

Have any of  you ever felt like the craziness of life was taking you over and that you were drowning?  How did you deal?

Be cheerful no matter what; pray all the time; thank God no matter what happens. This is the way God wants you who belong to Christ Jesus to live.

TTFN!
April

Thursday, August 21, 2014

Countdown... T-minus 3 Days Til School Starts!!!



It's that time again when the kids are dreading what is coming and the parents are anticipating!!!  

We start the week before trying to get back into our normal school time schedule.  My two youngest boys spent a lot of the summer at their Dad's house so I kinda gave them a few days to start to get used to being home before I started pushing the back into school schedule thing.  I feel like this is good for the kids so they are somewhat into the routine and it's not as hard once we HAVE to do it!  Plus, I need this week to get me back into the schedule.  No more sleeping in for Mom either!  

I also have my now 7 year old doing some school stuff each day to get back into it.  They forget some during the summer, and I really didn't have any control over what he did as far as reading and practicing during the summer so I wanted to make sure he started to get back into it before school started.  It should make it a little easier that first week if he remembers at least a little bit from where he left off.  

What do you do to prep your kids before school starts?  

Tuesday, May 27, 2014

It's already Tuesday



Today I realized it's Tuesday!!  The kids only have a few more day's of school.  They boys are going to their Dad's for 2 weeks this weekend.  Oh, my gosh it's already Tuesday!  I have so much to do!  I am sure I am not the only Momma that feels like that but sometimes it hits me and I really just feel like I've been pushed along in the week and didn't even notice the time going by. Course I've been busy so you know the saying... "Time flies when your having fun!"  or taking care of lots of people!  

Anyway!  I have realized that I am somewhat addicted to 19 kids and Counting.  I know kinda a weird show to be addicted to, but we have it on Netflix and I started watching it.  I guess it makes me feel like my life is not so crazy after all.  LOL  I also have gotten some really great ideas on organizing, and having the kids helping out at home.  I love that they are just regular people and that they stick by their beliefs and their convictions no matter what anyone thinks.  Children are a blessing from God no doubt about it!  

I am rereading the final book in one of my favorite series.  Diana Gabaldon's Outlander series is excellent.  I am reading An Echo in the Bone before the next book comes out so I remember all of what happened.  I picked up the book and actually kinda chuckled.  I don't remember this book being this big!  LOL  I love big books!  I have preordered the next book to go to my kindle so I it will be easier to keep with me than a great big book.  I think I will still miss having that big book sitting around.  I also think I will miss the look on people's faces when they say... are you reading that!  Wow that's huge!  

Today was a pretty good day... I love teething babies!  LOL oh was that facetious.  No they are sweet babies my head only hurt for a little while. :-)  It is always a joy to see them growing and learning.  Chaeli is a determined little lady.  She will be crawling in no time.  She gets up on her hands and knees and wiggles back and forth.  It's so cute!  Landree (who I babysit)  is getting good at the crawling thing and gets so excited when she gets going.  Mr. G was fun today too!  He is getting so big!  Sometimes I have to remind myself he is only 3!  All in all it's been a good day.

OK now I must go rest so I can do it all again tomorrow!  :-)

TTFN
April